i know.. it will take me into a difficult and nasty situation later on. but i have to do that now. instead of looking all these creepy things, then i preferred to finish it a-s-a-p because some tasks are waiting to be done… this chapter, that presentation, these long-list questions, this check-list, that holiday plan (whoa..), this.. that.. this.. that.. BLAH!

well, i just need a place to shout… never mind!